A simple piece of my heart

Why does everybody thinks that a person is a martyr when he/she gives love and do everything for the person he loves so much even though sometimes it hurts and not appreciated. As of me, love is not expecting anything in return and not forcing someone to love you back in return...

I've been inlove a couple of times but I know that now is different from those. I never realize that this time will come and I cant even recognize myself rightnow. I'm inlove with a guy who doesn't appreciate me or what i did for him, but it's okay with me, as long as were together it doesn't really matters.

He loves to play computer games and he only focuses on those, it's like my greatest competition is the computer not a girl. I can't imagine I'm in a battle with a thing that doesn't have life...but ofcourse can answer almost all of your questions. Sometimes I looked way back then from my past relationships. When I'm tired of it and I don't want it anymore I just quit and that's it, but now is different. Some of my friends told me its "KARMA", hmmmmmm...I really hope it's not.

I always beg of him for his attention and time, whenever he's in the front of his computer I cant talk to him or approach him. There are times that I get tantrums out of it and get mad, he will then pays attention for a couple of hours then its back to computers again. How will I know if he really loves me?or he just needs me to do his laundry, make meals and coffee and cleans the house. Rightnow we are in the middle of misunderstanding. I asked him something then he told me I'm spoiled brat and full of drama, I really don't know where to stand, what to do but if I didn't do that what shall I do for him to takecare of me, give time for me. I really love him and I can take all of it just to be with him. I just want to know if my love is enough for him.